Resistance can be a sacred message from the universe

For a long time, I looked outside of myself for permission. I would question myself and wonder, am I wrong? Why doesn’t anyone else see what I see? I wanted external validation for the thoughts inside my brain. 

I was afraid to listen to my own authority and guidance system - because I could feel it leading me down a path I didn’t understand. My friends and family weren’t getting this particular internal call, so I kept hanging up. No, I’m sorry, that person is unavailable. I was afraid to know what would happen if I answered. Who would love me if I completely blew up everything I knew?

It can feel very isolating to think differently or see differently or act differently. We lose the safety of the group and a sense of belonging is a human need.

Which is why we go along with a plan that doesn’t suit us, because shouldn’t we be able to make this work if everyone around us is?

This is why I love Human Design, because it says, ACTUALLY WE’RE ALL MEANT TO LIVE RADICALLY DIFFERENT. This monoculture? Not natural.

When we feel different, when we want to break out but don’t - we hide our light (our individuality). We bury our gifts, the very things that we’re called to use and share.

The vision and point of view that I had (and still have) I would keep to myself when I realized it was REALLY different than the vision of those around me. So I would choose to shelf my vision, keeping it in private in my journal and ensconce myself in the comfort of the shared vision of the mainstream, I could see things the way I thought everyone else saw them and I would accept it because I didn’t like being alone on my own island. 

But, denying our nature can only last so long. And I would become so jealous when I would come across someone living how I secretly wanted to live. HOW DID THEY BREAK OUT??? HOW DID THEY STAND ON THEIR OWN PRINCIPLES AND VISION? WHO GAVE THEM PERMISSION TO UNSUBSCRIBE FROM THE RULES? DON’T THEY KNOW THERE ARE VERY CLEAR RULES!!!

RUDE.

So rude, because now I really had to face what had been buried deep within.

I didn’t know then that that jealousy was a sacred sign from the universe - telling me to take note 📝 SAYING, HELLO! THIS IS WHAT YOU ARE ALSO MEANT TO DO. BREAK OUT AND FORGE A NEW PATH. A PATH THAT DOESN’T YET EXIST AND THAT’S THE COOL PART.

Sometimes we’re forging forward, spending our precious energy on the wrong pursuit because we’re seeking validation externally instead of aligning ourselves with our own navigation 🧭 system. 

And our bodies continue to be a witness to our true identity and our true purpose regardless if we’re listening, they always are talking to us, nudging us along our own sacred path. We just have to stop and listen.

It can be scary to take the call or feel those uncomfortable feelings, but growth requires them. Bravery requires them. YOUR DIVINE LIFE REQUIRES THEM. When we bury that signal - we keep ourselves in situations that aren’t right and we’re robbing ourselves of finding a better path. 

The good news is that it is absolutely never too late to turn up the volume and hear the signal that is alerting you that you’re living against your nature (in Human Design we call this living in the not-self). 

Each of us has a not-self alert - a frequency that lets us know we’re in the weeds. How incredible is that? You have a built-in alarm system that tells you - hey, this isn’t for you and we can always choose to tune in.

When we are living in our not-self, we’re working against our natural energy flow; draining our resources, moving further away from our individual authenticity. Many of us live here for long periods of time. So long, we believe that our not-self IS our real self.

This is why resistance is a sacred messenger. Resistance, that loss of flow, is a gift to slow down and look at our surroundings. 

That not-self frequency looks different for each energy type:

for Projectors (like me) it’s bitterness.

For Manifestors, it’s anger.

For Manifesting Generators & Generators it’s frustration.

For Reflectors it’s disappointment. 

So, when these feelings pop up in you, and they will pop up no matter how much you listen or don’t listen - don’t push ignore, lend them an ear 👂- give them credence. 

Think about this not-self frequency as the rumble strips along the highway. These feelings serve a critical purpose, as they slow you down and shake you awake. These feelings say, HELLO! Please pay attention because we’re about to really get off course.

These feelings are sacred messengers here to align you with your transcendent, brilliant path.

It will only be uncomfortable for a little while. And it’s absolutely ok and natural to find yourself living out of alignment. It is a process after all, as we grow and change.

Use these feelings as signs, see them as messengers, and begin to look inward. Talk to them. Journal to them. Walk with them. Ask them what do I need to know?

Are you letting someone else’s values call your shots? 

We can sabotage our own dreams by looking to others for permission. We want to do something and then peek around at others, determining if we’re on the right path. Is this normal? AM I NORMAL?

There is no normal. We’re all meant to weave in and out of each other’s lives - creating a patchwork quilt with our colors and visions and acts.

We can only step into our gifts when we’re ready to accept that we’re our own authority.

When we step into our own personal power, making decisions from our center, from our own authority, we no longer have to choose to be limited by the expectations of others. We can feel confident in our own path (even if it’s REALLY OUT THERE)

The only one that can live your authentic life is you. You hear the call and can choose to answer or ignore it. You hold the power to align yourself again. 

AND YOU DON’T HAVE TO DO IT ALONE BECAUSE THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT HERE WHO CAN SUPPORT YOU IN YOUR JOURNEY.

As a Human Design guide, I am here for you to uncover who you really are. I am here to help you understand that frequency of the not-self isn’t who you are - it’s that alarm system asking you to wake up to your truth.

As we walk our paths, we meet others who are also living their truth and we begin to live life on a completely new plane - we relate authentically to ourselves and we meet others who are in their truth and it’s much better than hiding your light.

You get to use YOUR GIFTS. Your gifts give you LIFE!

It can be a rocky path, but it is a life that is deeply satisfying.

Are you ready to listen?