How the Channel of Judgment led to my own fitness method: introducing the Magic Body Method!

I have the channel of judgment in my chart and YES, I do feel it.

The channel of judgment connects gate18 in the spleen to gate 58 in the root. It is a pressurized channel that I am aware of essentially every waking minute of the day.

How I see and feel channel 18-48 is the *relentless* pursuit of perfection.

HUMAN DESIGN POP CULTURE SIDE NOTE - WANT TO KNOW WHO FAMOUSLY ALSO HAS THIS CHANNEL? ELON MUSK 🤯

When I found out about Human Design and understood this channel - honestly, it was a massive weight off - at LAST there was a reason for the crushing perfectionism I felt ALL THE TIME! But what is fascinating about this channel of energy is that it isn’t meant to be turned inward! This energy in it’s purest expression is about the pressure act in service of greater humankind. It’s a pursuit of helping humans on the whole find joy.

Gate 18 in the spleen is about correction - in the I’Ching an English translation is “working on it.” The energy is an intuitive understanding and drive to fix and tinker. It’s also what gives gate 18 (and channel of judgment holders) an “eagle eye.” This energy is trained to spot the bottleneck. It’s deeply logical and based in seeing patterns - those of us who hold this energy know what will go wrong, and where you are going to go wrong - and we can accurately anticipate where something might fall short. The thing about gate 18 and this channel is that this information MUST BE ASKED FOR - otherwise it comes across as judgment.

Now, it’s not all doom and gloom for us 18-58’s - because Gate 58 is all about LOVING LIFE! The I’Ching calls gate 58 “the joyful lake.” 58 is about a deep well and inner resource of vitality and zest for life. One of my Human Design teachers likens it to being high on your own supply, LOLOL!!!

So when we look at 18-58 together - it’s the pressure to correct what we see for everyone to experience a deep abundance of inner joy. HOW BEAUTIFUL!!

As a person born into a woman’s body - I have struggled with perfectionism when it comes to my physical form - until I realized that it was the biggest block I had in fully being in my joy. The lower expression of energy from that pressure to be perfect and correct what I was doing all the time really killed my vibe. From my time as a special education teacher + teaching boutique fitness I realized how buying into beauty and diet culture is killing us while we’re still here.

So I’ve been creating a method that has helped free myself from diet culture and celebrate myself.

Introducing ✨ THE MAGIC BODY METHOD ✨ I created this for my ongoing recovery from my own harsh thoughts on myself. 

When I was able to make the most progress in my personal life and development was when I was able to just exist in my body, letting my self-consciousness drop and being fully in the moment. This was not an overnight process, but a deep awakening.

If you are in a cycle of self-judgment and monitoring yourself from a 3rd party point of view, you are squeezing all the joy out of life, which sucks. We’re meant to live and feel and experience, not watch our lives trying to manage how we’re perceived. This has been a huge process for me. (I have to shout out the work done by Beauty Redefined, The Fuck It Diet, Jessamyn Stanley, Megan of BodyPosi Panda, and many others who push back on mainstream beauty and wellness culture as they have all been instrumental in my recovery from disordered body issues)

Magic Body Method is a peek into my toolkit into fighting diet culture and how I get in touch with the moment. It’s 30 minutes you can give to yourself to be present and get your aura real nice and tidy. If we’re grounded in our energy and present, then we create a canvas to feel out the vibes around us. The basis of all energy work begins by being in the moment. Come check it out!

What I Learned from Trusting Myself (and my career journey to Human Design)

PLANT YOURSELF WHERE YOU WANT TO BLOOM

If you told me when I was in high school that I would be spiritually advising people, I would have been like THAT IS RAD and also how is that a thing? I’m grateful for all the twists and turns my career path has taken because without the duality to life, I wouldn’t know the depths of life as I do now. If you’re reading this and you’re feeling stuck or unsuccessful right now, remember that we’re always changing and evolving.

My perceived “failures” (how I saw things at the time) led me directly to my successes. I definitely know that I would not have ended up here had my first career path been “successful” instead of deeply frustrating.

So, how did I end up here? My career path has been a weaving of retail, teaching, and wellness. Figuring out how those pieces fit together has been a journey. I’ve found my footing by taking agency over my life, my experiences, and most importantly, my body.

My 20s felt out of control and held some very high highs and low lows. I was living OUTSIDE-IN. Hoping that if I could get the external circumstances right, my internal life would calm down.

I know now that the only way to get out internal life calm is to go INSIDE OUT. We must begin within.

Now, I live an incredibly low-key lifestyle. Every day is a wonderful day because I’m right within (and if it’s not a good day, I have the tools to realign). I see clients, I work at an indie retail shop here in Austin, and an exciting night for me is making art in my own home. I love it. Super slow living.

HOW DID I MAKE THIS SHIFT HAPPEN?

Let’s start at the beginning. I used to like to learn my lessons the hard way. Why do I believe in body wisdom so deeply? Because I’ve lost my health multiple times from not listening to myself.

After graduating college (undergrad) with a degree in fashion (and another one in communication, because hello, I was your typical perfectionist overachiever) I began my professional career bright-eyed and oh-so-naive in NYC.

My first year of city living caught up with me by blowing out my immune system. I think it only took about 6 months. I had to do all the things. Be amazing at my job, go to all the happy hours, make friends outside of my office, be the perfect girlfriend to my boyfriend at the time. I’d been so out of place in college, that I was determined to make up for “lost time.”

In reality I was a people-pleaser trying to be everything to everyone, seeking approval and validation, and desperately trying to fit in. I was living for the checklist. I figured I could find salvation through achievement. If I have a brag-worthy job and am in a relationship with someone who also has a brag-worthy job and we look good and do cool things, then I’ll be happy, then I’ll feel successful and not this empty void. I was totally caught up in my perception instead of how I was feeling, cultivating externals and completely ignoring my internals.

All of this trying-to burned me out. I hated my job, I didn’t know if I liked my boyfriend, and I barely had friends. I didn’t know how to cope. That first winter, I got sick with a fever that nearly wiped out all my white blood cells and bone marrow. I was grateful to have to go to the doctor’s office at least once a week as an escape from the office. My doctor tried to figure out why I barely had an immune system left as a 22-year-old who seemingly had just had the flu. They tested and tested me for months and finally settled on the solution being gain some weight, but really, no one had answers.

The “great recession” hit and I got switched into a position that was a terrible fit for me, but I was grateful to be employed. My Projector vision showed me that commerce was rapidly changing and that millennials were not mini-boomers. HOW WOULD WE CHANGE AND ADAPT? I had ideas to reach out to marginalized communities and to younger people. No one would listen to me because it wasn’t “worth it” financially. It was unproven. I continued to give unsolicited advice and provided endless ideas to my team to no avail (ahem, not-self Projector) and I became increasingly depressed as I kept hoping for someone to see my value and put me in a position that was a better fit or give me more power (haha, I would have had to have been much better at doing my ASSIGNED work).

Why wasn’t anyone listening to me? During those 5 years that I spent in corporate merchandising and buying, I learned many invaluable lessons.

1) How we run businesses is absolutely insane. If you are a good individual contributor, you are rewarded with a completely untested skill set of managing people. Not all individual contributors should be managers and people who would make good managers may not be good individual contributors. We promote to the level of incompetence and that’s why there is so much ineptitude in business.

2) Just because a lot of people believe something, doesn’t make it true or the best. I call this the myth of the best-seller. General wisdom is that something that sells the most is BEST. No. It just means a lot of people bought it. Validation isn’t the same as quality. When we would go to market, it was so depressing to see all these incredible products that would never make it to mass market because they were new ideas or not broadly enough focused. This is illustrated best by watching Shark Tank. Good ideas aren’t always marketable ideas. Things that are good for society don’t typically square with the principles of capitalism which is solely focused on growth and profits.

3) Betraying yourself to belong comes with a hefty price tag. If you give up on being yourself, your insides go to shit.

4) RESISTANCE IS A CALL FROM THE UNIVERSE TO LET GO. Learn to cut your losses. Admitting defeat is a good thing. When we keep trying to make something happen and it’s not happening - it’s time to look at your ego. Resistance is a sacred call from the universe to take another path.

SILVER LINING! Being in a job that wasn’t the right fit gave me an amazing opportunity to get clear on my values. If it wasn’t for the rampant waste I was exposed to and the insanity of our capitalistic society that centers on growth at any cost, I wouldn’t know that I am all about sustainability and minimalism. It was only through experiencing corporate values firsthand and seeing how mainstream companies are run that I found out that I was personally driven by the values of minimalism, sustainability, and understanding entire the life-cycle of a product.

When I finally accepted that the only person who could fix my life was me, I went back to my roots. When I finally realized the mainstream retail industry wasn’t going to bend to my value system, I quit my job and started again. I had loved being a camp counselor in high school and college, so I went back to school to become a teacher. I was still tethered to old paradigm programming, so I didn’t fully go for my dreams which at the time were a recurring fantasy of working on an organic farm or becoming a body-image and confidence counselor for young women. I let other people’s opinions and my own practicality get the best of me and I landed in a master’s program for special education.

My first teaching job was hectic and an extremely unsupportive environment. I was scared, out of control, and I headed straight back to burnout town. My health problems came back even worse and I ended up needing a lot of medical care. However, the lessons came through strong:

1) We live in an extremely racist society. During grad school I faced my white privilege more than I ever had to before. It was extremely eye-opening as I realized how many internalized biases I had to dismantle (this work continues to this day).

2) Resources pool at the top. Rich schools have rich PTAs and access to resources well beyond what the school system provides. Schools on the other end of the spectrum are underfunded and overwhelmed with a lack of resources and adequate help.

3) Our educational system is backwards and broken. Testing students is the focus of schools because of educational policy at every level of government. It is ineffective and goes against how students learn best. Every single student has different needs, strengths, and weaknesses, but traditional schooling elevates a very small skill set and ignores many skill sets that are deeply needed in life. Students who excel in school may be very ill-equipped for “real life” many students who have incredible skill sets that would serve them well in “real life” aren’t celebrated or acknowledged in a traditional school setting.

4) A warm, safe environment is the root for learning and collaboration. If our emotional and physical needs aren’t being met, we cannot learn or grow. If you are actively facing trauma or are feeling unsafe, you cannot learn (and may not even be physically growing). Environment is critical for our wellbeing. Until we are safe, we cannot thrive.

I was so lost and confused, but along my way I found kundalini yoga and an entirely new world of thinking. I read Conscious Loving by Gay and Kathlyn Hendricks and I was hit with lightning. I understood my health issues in an entirely new light. I also understood that I was quite far from operating in my zone of Genius.

A new chapter: discovering body wisdom + the power of being present

If students can’t learn when they are actively in a traumatic environment, what does that say for those of us who inflict trauma onto ourselves?

My health was out of control. Since I was so out of alignment personally, my body was screaming at me to change course. In Conscious Loving, the Hendricks identify that tamping down our emotions manifest as illness later on and if we fight our natural rhythms, our bodies will fight our battles for us.

When I didn’t know how to communicate for myself that my boundaries had been crossed or I was in the wrong place, my body would generate illness so I could escape my circumstances. Since I wasn’t listening to my body or allowing myself rest (and my internal environment was a wreck with perfectionism) I would manifest sickness as an escape or an out from life. I didn’t know another way to stop the train.

Lessons:

1) We are most effective where our passions and skills lie - if we are happy we create positive environments for others and ourselves. If we’re unhappy and not using our talents, we’re not being effective for anyone.

2) Our bodies hold so much intelligence. Honoring our energy and feelings is the key to finding our correct path.

Now that I know my body communicates what is right and what isn’t, I listen to my body and let it lead me. In the years since reading Conscious Loving, I’ve only had one major relapse with my health (and it was very much stress-related).

Armed with a new way of thinking, I completely stayed in the present moment and let go of the future entirely. We make leaps and bounds in our life when we can be here now (thank you Ram Dass). By feeling my feelings, honoring my body, and acknowledging what I was going through internally instead of burying it deeper and deeper within (and pretending everything was fine), I changed my life.

My job (actually my whole life at the time wasn’t the right fit for me) but I focused on taking it one minute at a time. Slowly, my circumstances began to shift. I was grateful for all the good things. I realized my external circumstances didn’t dictate how I felt.

Lessons:

1) WE ARE NOT MEANT TO DO IT ALL. Teachers, especially special education teachers, have an impossible job. My colleagues that felt that they had to do everything and save the day were drowning. Since I had so much on my plate and had gotten so behind in my school work from my health problems, I had to let go of doing it all. I just couldn’t.

2) You can let go of your baggage at any time. Since I was so overloaded, I became free. When everything is a crisis, nothing becomes a crisis. I was able to stop thinking about what could happen, or what would happen, and was radically present in my life.

Serendipitously, I found another teaching job much more suited to my skill set in a much more supportive setting. Some might call this manifesting. I’ve found in my life that the next step comes the more that I detach from the outcome. Many teachers talk about how being present is the secret to co-creating with the universe and when I look back over my life, that’s certainly been the case for me.

The new school I worked at was wonderful, and the quality of my life improved. I love being around people and especially kids, but even in this better suited job, I was present enough to see how our education system is so terribly broken. At first I wanted to work against the system, but I realized that it absolutely drove me mad that my students were so aware of their “shortcomings” and not given more time to work on their incredible gifts and talents. Why did we work in a system that focuses on where a student doesn’t thrive instead of supporting them in their interests and talents?

lessons:

1) keep clarifying your values. As a special education teacher I realized so deeply that everyone deserves to be celebrated and acknowledged for who they are. Celebrating our differences became so much more important to me than test scores.

2) Not every fight is your fight. I feel so strongly about education, but just because something is important to you doesn’t mean you have to make it your life work. My mother and grandmother were both teachers and it is a very noble profession. Allowing myself to leave was critical to my evolution. Just because you care or you tried it, doesn’t mean you have to do it forever.

I didn’t want to do my job, I wanted to work with students on their self-worth and self-esteem.

The way I see it is like this: if we erode your self-esteem how will you even have energy left to do what you love? If you aren’t doing what you love then the world misses out on your talents and joy. It would keep me up at night that I wasn’t able to help these students in their area of interest but had to sit with them while they did the subjects they hated the most. I just didn’t agree with the school system at all, even though I loved my students and my school, teaching just wasn’t the right fit for me.

So after teaching in public schools for 5 years, I had a revealing moment of clarity. Who was I living for? What was the point of everything I was doing? I could stay and teach forever at the incredible school I was so blessed to work at and feel like I was compromising, or I could follow that nagging in my heart that said I hadn’t really let myself chase my dreams.

I was done denying who I was. I was done hoping I could wrangle myself into submission, hoping I could fit myself into the mold I felt I needed to succeed, so in the summer of 2017, I traveled to Texas, following my intuition that I was meant to live here and I quit my stable life.

I FINALLY SAID TO THE UNIVERSE, WHAT’S THE WORST THAT COULD HAPPEN IF I BET ON MYSELF?

And it turns out, the doors just keep opening the more that I listen and am honest with what I am feeling. Living my values and staying true to my heart are the things I believe in most.

It was here that I serendipitously found out about Human Design.

Finding Human Design (and finding out I was a Projector) was one of the biggest aha moments for me. All of a sudden my life made sense. As a Projector I operate differently than most - I work in intense bursts, I work best one-on-one (no wonder teaching was so draining!) and I am meant to share my unique perspective with the world.

I realized we don’t have to fight our nature, we must embrace it.

When we make a commitment to ourselves to be authentically us, we are able to cultivate a sense of stability and inner peace that grounds us in who we are.

We can become unshakeable.

The amazing thing is it’s never too late to find your truth and find yourself.

I’ve rebuilt my life completely by learning to trust myself and living my design. You can too

I used to feel so frustrated that I hadn’t just followed my heart right after college, the heart that would routinely keep me up until 2 in the morning googling life-coaching and freelance writing wondering if a 22-year old could be qualified to tell anyone anything about life. No, I would think, I can’t do that - it doesn’t have health insurance.

Now, I am thankful for all my experiences. I don’t hold a grudge against my younger self for not knowing what to do or feel confident to follow my heart (I have an undefined G-center and ego after all) and everything has had a lesson and has enriched my life. Showing me what I want and what I don’t. The duality of life and our experiences is what brings richness and meaning to our experiences. If I hadn’t experienced such low-lows and found myself in so many doctors offices, I would never appreciate and treasure my time and health like I do now.

Things that felt like wrong turns have taught me so much about my boundaries and my self-worth. Living my values and allowing my values to evolve have brought me to this moment in time where I can now help facilitate this experience of clarity for others.

Finding our way is a winding road and there’s no destination. It’s just one long journey of self-exploration. We lead with our hearts when we’re ready to tune into what our heart has to say to us.

I had a memory recently about a talk I attended at my old corporate job where our CEO urged us to bloom where we are planted. I would say it to myself all the time to try to find the good even thought I knew the situation I was in wasn’t right for me. Now I know I it’s actually the reverse that true for me- plant yourself where you can bloom.

If you’re ready to live more embodied - reach out. I’d love to talk to you - drop me a line at hello@jenigage.com, I’d love to hear your story.

New Moon in Virgo + Setting intentions + inviting in the spirit of play into your world

I love the new moon for setting intentions. Even though we can set intentions whenever we want, I find that having the backdrop of the moon's energy is like an extra blessing we can use to supercharge our magic. It always feels like a special time to pause and connect within. 

My intention I'm setting for this super new moon in Virgo is to play more -  as I uproot my perfectionist tendencies, I see the benefit in making time for pure pleasure. The dictionary defines play as engaging in activity for enjoyment and recreation rather than a serious or practical purpose. Just because we're grown doesn't mean play becomes less important to our own holistic development.

I used to be so over-scheduled I had no idea who I was. I know now it was exactly for that reason - if we're so busy we can't think, we're escaping ourselves, but we're also selling ourselves short. If we're not on earth to find out who we are - then why are we here?

By honoring and exploring our interests and committing to give ourselves time to play, we can open ourselves up to the divine, the bigger picture, and invite magic into our lives. 

How are you creating time for recreation and relaxation in your life?

If the idea of using your time for pure pleasure is triggering - dig into that. I found for myself that I didn't believe I was worthy of giving myself time to enjoy what I wanted to enjoy because I was so set on a productivity mindset. Creating space for joy and recreation takes thoughtfulness and time as we strike out the programming that tells us to be practical with our pursuits.

It is worth it to examine your beliefs and carve out time for yourself. Play is an extraordinary gift and perhaps one of the most important things we can do for ourselves. If you need more of a reason than getting to know what you like and enjoying that for enjoyment's sake - then know that giving yourself time to chill out is essential for your mental health and wellbeing. 

I invite you to reflect on where you are in your life right now. Take 10 minutes and journal or sit quietly in meditation. How are you showing up for yourself? How would you like to show up for yourself as you progress into Fall? 

Shifting success to work for you: Navigating the world with an open heart center and swimming against the tide of a productivity at any cost culture.

In Human Design, wisdom doesn’t come from the defined energy, but from the white spaces in our charts.

Ra Uru Hu (channeler of the Human Design System) said it best when he said the white space is where we go to school.

Therefore, whenever I’m in my not-self over my worth, I go to open heart school where I am constantly reminded that open hearts have nothing to gain from trying to prove themselves.

So check your chart, if you have white space in the heart (ego) center (70% of us do), you have the potential to get really burned by societal pressures to perform and achieve.

TAKE THAT IN FOR A MINUTE. 70% OF PEOPLE DO NOT HAVE STABLE HEART ENERGY AT THEIR DISPOSAL. This means that the majority of people are getting sucked into competitive energy and ego energy that’s not theirs.

EXPLAINS A LOT, DOESN’T IT.

70% OF PEOPLE ARE OUT HERE THINKING, “I HAVE TO ACHIEVE TO PROVE MY WORTH.”

WE HAVE GOT TO GET OFF THIS HAMSTER WHEEL.

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UNLESS YOU ENJOY TAKING SOMEONE ELSE’S RIDE (SEE HAMSTER CLINGING TO WHEEL FOR DEAR LIFE ABOVE), learning to balance that open heart center is critical for our wellbeing.

We’re not meant to compete in the same way that defined hearts do. Those blessed with their own heart energy typically have the built in self-worth that we have to build on our own.

So how does the open heart center work?

Our heart centers amplify the output from surrounding defined heart energy. We’re processing centers for heart energy, which explains why we can really get caught in the tailwind of our cultural obsession with action and achievement. 

Hi, yes, I’d like off the hamster wheel please.

Balancing your open heart is possible!

First step is compassion towards ourselves and others. Second step is remembering with an open heart you aren’t here to prove your worth.

These are the only steps needed in heart school. Compassion towards yourself and the mantra, “I have nothing to prove.”

When you find yourself on the hamster wheel, feel free to give a quick reframe to the experience by saying thank you for teaching me that I have nothing to prove.

No one told us we’re out here amplifying the energy of others or that we can quickly get carried away while others can use that energy wisely. From my experience, it feels like failing at having value while others seem SO VALUABLE and it feels random. It can trigger my victim mentality and feel very, WHY NOT ME?*

No matter what we try, we can’t earn our way to heart energy if we don’t have it in our charts.

It is fully random that some people get heart energy and you and I didn’t. If you need something to blame, blame the stars. (Our bodygraph is a map of our energy and that energy outlined on the map is imprinted star energy. They just weren’t on heart energy when you were born and that is OK!)

It’s all going to be fine because we can shift our attention and awareness to where it can have an impact.

So my open heart friends - when we’re in heart school, we’re learning that we are already enough.

We may be in heart school for years, days, months, or on and off for our whole lives. We’re in heart school as much as we need until we integrate the knowledge that Open heart energy people aren’t here to base our worth on our productivity - it’s just not our energy!

So, open heart - you have nothing to prove. Now what?

Sitting down and defining success for ourselves, especially during testing times is a spiritual exercise that can bring greater alignment into your life.

If you didn’t have the media setting the agenda for you, what would success look like for you?

If you haven’t taken a step back from TV, magazines, social media anything that triggers you to act out of low self-worth, well- now’s the time. It’s super helpful to cut out the noise to connect back with your core essence.

If you need research proving that there’s nothing to gain from pushing yourself into endless productivity - I recommend finding these two books:

• How to do Nothing by Jenny Odell

• Do Nothing: How to Break Away from Overworking, Overdoing, and Underliving by Celeste Headlee

Yes, I read two books this summer to prove that I have nothing to prove, but if you’re anything like me and you need some solid validation and well-researched evidence about the benefits of shifting your success metrics - read one or both of these. Celeste Headlee’s research showing how our definition of success has been passed down and shaped through the generations genuinely blew my mind.

When we follow our own guidance and intuition and work on building our own self-worth foundation it can feel lonely, but know that we’re in the midst of creating new worlds. We’re making ourselves unshakeable. We’re swimming against the old ways and new ways of experiencing and experimenting can be met with skepticism by the greater collective.

Double-down on your own way!My life is infinitely more enjoyable when I am process-oriented. We’re on the vanguard when we decide to enjoy the moment and not just the end results.

While I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to stop getting caught in the achievement lifestyle completely, knowing that I have an open heart helps me become so much more aware when I am out of my alignment.

I am  here to feel and experience, I gain wisdom and awareness by growing my daily ability to appreciate life. 

If you’d like to explore this for yourself here are some reflection questions you can journal on:

How have your values shifted during this time?

How do you define success?

What lessons have you been learning lately? 

How do I know when I am in my not-self?

*if you click on this link know this is my favorite commercial from college in the year 2005. Yes, it is enforcing gender stereotypes + objectifies women, but I definitely felt,(maybe still feel) like an Ashley a lot.

Human Design 101: Why Should I learn my Human Design?

Knowing your Human Design can help you use your energy effectively and efficiently as you navigate through life and find out what it means to really be you.

The essence of Human Design is understanding how your aura works. The magic is you innately know how to live your design!

When we’re learning and investigating our Human Design we’re really asking these two questions:

1) How do I operate the best in the world?

2) What beliefs or blocks (conditioning) am I holding that are keeping me from living my way?

We can get a really good idea of what energy you have all the time and where you are meant to gain wisdom and knowledge in this lifetime by taking a deep dive into your Human Design chart.

There’s a lot of information out there on Human Design and about an infinite amount of ways that you can interpret it.

If you’ve found me, you’ll see I interpret Human Design as a tool we can use and apply to our lives in a grounded, practical way. You don’t need months of classes before you start experimenting with your own individual design.

If you’d like to learn more - I’ve posted foundational information here.

Working with a Human Design reader is a wonderful way to get the lay of the land and understand how your aura works.

If you’d like to explore getting a reading done with me - let’s chat! Drop me a note.

HUMAN DESIGN 101: WHAT IS THE NOT-SELF?

PERHAPS YOU’VE WORKED TOWARD A GOAL ONLY TO FIND IT WASN’T SO SATISFYING ONCE ACHIEVED?

Or just had that overwhelming feeling that you aren’t living YOUR life?

LIKELY YOU’RE WORKING OUT OF YOUR NOT-SELF.

THE NOT-SELF IS EXACTLY WHAT IS SOUNDS LIKE, IT’S WHAT HAPPENS WHEN WE LET OUR CONDITIONING TAKE OVER AND DRIVE OUR LIFE FORWARD INSTEAD OF ALLOWING OUR NATURAL AUTHORITY TO MAKE DECISIONS.

WE ALL HAVE A UNIQUE WAY OF MAKING DECISIONS AS OUR AUTHENTIC SELVES.

BY GETTING COMFORTABLE WITH OURSELVES, WE CAN BEGIN TO INTERACT WITH OUR LIFE AND OTHERS IN A NEW WAY. A FREEING WAY.

HUMAN DESIGN SHOWS US HOW TO GET IN OUR OWN CORRECT LANE. MOST OF US SPEND OUR LIFE OPERATING OUT OF THIS NOT-SELF SPACE WHERE WE ARE PUSHING TOO HARD AND USING OUR ENERGY INCORRECTLY. WE’RE ALL DRIVING AROUND IN FERRARIS, BUT HAVEN’T LEARNED HOW TO DRIVE. HUMAN DESIGN IS LIKE GETTING A DRIVING LESSON SO THAT WE CAN REALLY GET GOING.

Each energy type has its own theme that allows us to see when we’re out of our alignment - or driving in our NOT-SELF.

Generators + Manifesting Generators: when you are experiencing thematic frustration - it’s time to take a look at what you are spending your time on - has your energy stopped flowing and you’re trying to force it? Frustration is a sign you’re no longer using your energy efficiently.

Manifestors: When that anger bubbles up, you’re likely not speaking up or someone has tried to direct your action. When you’ve got that righteous anger flowing - PAY ATTENTION! You’re out of alignment.

Projectors: BITTERNESS, JEALOUSY, ENVY, COMPARISON - if any of these flavors are popping up - it’s time to regroup. With our deep ability to see into others, we often neglect ourselves. Bitterness (and it’s related cousins jealousy, etc) show up when we need to spend some time inside ourselves.

Reflectors: When you are just DISAPPOINTED, that’s the signpost from the universe that you need to take some time to release the energy you’ve collected along the way from society. You are in alignment when you’ve got that feeling of surprise and delight. If you’re overwhelmed with disappointment, time to spend some time alone recharging.

These energetic signposts are so helpful in telling us when it’s time to get out of our minds and into the body. If you’re finding that you’re living in your Not-Self more than alignment, that’s totally fine! No need to beat yourself up, just start getting curious. Journaling, yoga, movement, a conversation with a trusted friend can all be good places to begin to reconnect with your own authenticity.

Want to dig deeper? I’m always available for a Clarity Session.

Human Design 101: How to find your Human Design Chart

HOW TO GET STARTED WITH HUMAN DESIGN

Let’s start at the very beginning y’all! You’ll need to get your bodygraph chart to find out all the juicy information about your design.

Whether you are doing the DIY route or have been working with a Human Design reader, knowing how to find your Human Design chart is a really helpful tool to have!

Think of your chart as your map.

To create your own bodygraph, you’ll need 3 critical details:

• birth date

• birth location

• accurate birth time

All 3 elements are needed to create an accurate chart.

Just like when you are getting your astrological natal chart, our bodygraph is created using the location of the planets. We want the most accurate picture for the most accurate reading.

Where do I find this information?

For most of us, this information is on our birth certificate. However, if your certificate is missing your birth time, you might just have a short-form copy. If that’s the case for you and you live in the United States, request a long-form birth certificate from your state’s record office.

If you want to create your own chart visit https://www.mybodygraph.com and follow the instructions to create!

ACK! I don’t know my birth time!

If you are missing your birth time or are just guessing, know that your chart isn’t going to be perfectly accurate. However, the big things - like energy type (aura) are likely correct. If you’re in a pickle over creating an accurate chart, reach out! I’ve had success working with clients who don’t have an exact birth time available to them. I am happy to work with you directly and we will create your chart based on what we do know.

Ok, I’m making my chart - how do I make sense of what I am seeing?

If you’ve used the website I’ve recommended, along the sidebar (or if you’re using a mobile, press the information tab) you’ll find a list of the elements in your chart.

Take note of your energy type, your strategy, and your authority. These elements have the biggest impact. Learn more in my other 101 pages!

Have questions? Find me on the ‘gram and slip into those DMs!

How does Human Design factor into our current political climate?

Spiritual work + political work go hand in hand. At its core, we learn our Human Design to become radically ourselves. History (especially whitewashed history) shows us that this simple pursuit can prove to be quite dangerous.

Risking your life for your beliefs and your rights is well-documented in history.

I was reminded of how threatened people feel when someone challenges the status quo when watching an episode of Cosmos with Neil deGrasse Tyson (episode one, season one) which centers on Giordano Bruno, a man who was burned at the stake for believing that the universe was ever expansive and was a reflection of the infinity of the divine.

If you are truly doing the work of living your design, then you are continually examining your beliefs, tracing them back to society and the power structures in place, and understanding that systems want our cooperation and not our wellbeing.

Living your design means you are ready to be isolated by living your own way. It’s scary and dangerous to go against the status quo.

However, if we want to live meaningfully, if we want to create a better, safer world for ourselves and future generations, then it becomes imperative to be expanding our bubble and our awareness. We must actively participate in our society and our communities.

We can’t take things on face value, but must learn to ask questions and live our truth. In order to make a more harmonious world, we first become uncomfortable and even scared as we peel back the layers of false narratives.

As you begin to awaken to reality, we take our power back by unsubscribing to the narrative. Ask questions like, who benefits from this story? Who is paying the bills to put these messages out? Who is harmed by this perspective? 

Learn from many different sources and learn to trust yourself.

We’re being called to wake up so we can usher in a new era. How will you play your part?