DEFINING SURRENDER AND EXPLORING LIFE AS IMPROV

Zibby: Have you ever thought of that?

Jesse: Thought what?

Zibby: How everything in life is basically improvised. There’s no script, we’re just makin’ this up as we go.

Jesse: That’s true.

Liberal Arts*(Elizabeth Olsen, Josh Radnor) 

How does your higher self communicate truths to you? Mine sends me messages through little scenes from obscure movies like this one. As I watched the scene unfold, I was struck. What if life is one big improv show?

COME WITH ME ON THIS JOURNEY INTO MY CONSCIOUSNESS AND INTO MY LESSON FROM THE UNIVERSE ON SURRENDER.

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1) IF LIFE IS IMPROV THE SHOW IS ALREADY HAPPENING.

2) IF LIFE IS IMPROV, SURRENDER IS PARAMOUNT: CONTROL IS FUTILE. (FLIPSIDE:THE CHANCES FOR FUN SKYROCKET)

3) IF LIFE IS IMPROV, WE CAN CO-CREATE WITH LIFE (AM I CHANGING MY MIND ON MANIFESTING??)

How do we unlock joy and creativity and art in the most random AND CHALLENGING of circumstances?

COMPLETE AND TOTAL SURRENDER. Have you ever been to an improv show? If someone isn’t willing to make a complete fool of themselves, it sucks.10 years ago I took the Improv 101 class at UCB theatre. I wanted to be creative and I wanted to meet hot dudes (LOLOL). Instead I got a rude awakening that I had massive control issues. Letting go and allowing myself to be completely present? HAHAHAHA. HARD AF.

Every practice I was constantly caught flat-footed because I was running lists of things that could be coming my way instead of LISTENING AND WATCHING WHAT WAS HAPPENING. 

I was completely unable (unwilling??) to let my guard down and fully commit to being in a scene. In improv, you can sculpt a world from nothing. But not if you’re anticipating or expecting something - YOU miss the magic and YOU kill the vibe. UGH, I was SUCH a vibe killer!!

The number one rule in improv? The Yes, And Rule. With the Yes, And Rule you’re validating what your partner said and you’re adding value by sketching more of the world you’re in - YES, AND brings shape and new life to the creation.

IF I'm not Yes, and-ing then I'm negating and controlling. If I get stuck on the expectations and anticipations, I miss the beauty and quirks of what's happening right in front of me. If you’ve ever done improv or comedy, you know that if you get stuck in your head, you’re dead. You’ve got to be an open vessel; completely fluid, and open to receive ANYTHING from your scene partner. 

GOOD IMPROV REQUIRES COMPLETE SURRENDER INTO THE SCENE.  
Good improv requires bravery + vulnerability. At 25 I was neither brave nor vulnerable. I was setting out to prove something, which is not the recipe for improv success. Improv is full of weird people because it’s full of people who have accepted themselves and they are willing to go with it.

Failing is part of the art.

How many times have you heard people say, you have to surrender? I’m always like, ok cool, BUT WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? Is it just completely letting go? Is it a lack of care? What does it mean to truly surrender?

But if life is improv then we have a new doorway into surrender. Surrender isn’t a lack of care or inaction, but complete trust and faith in yourself and whoever is there with you.  

SURRENDER IS EGOLESS PATIENCE COMBINED WITH OPENNESS TO THE PRESENT. If we wait for the right circumstances and the right people, then we’re in a Samuel Beckett play. No one wants to die being like, BUT WAIT I DIDN’T GET TO PLAY!!!! So therefore the time is now. The stage is set and there is no script since we’re all making it up as we go.

When the performers can let go of any preconceived notions of what they want to bring and just trust that the scene will be shaped as they go, they co-create a new universe for the audience and everyone gets to be inside of the dream for a moment. Good improv takes you to a new place.

If we live life with the spirit of improv, then we can create and play and make magic literally anytime, anywhere - through a little ingenuity, a willingness to make a fool of ourselves, and throwing ourselves into the moment. If we want to make great art we have to be willing to give it our all, even if it turns out totally wrong.

Something unexpected happened during the live performance for my Improv 101 finale, I actually was able to surrender to the moment.

The last class is held at the theatre in front of your friends and family. I was so energized and overwhelmed by the presence of the audience that I had no space left to be in my head. I was able to volley back and forth and participate in the performance art that is improv - my teacher and fellow classmates were floored.

What we’re really afraid of when we accept these truths about control and surrender is that it’s the unknown that’s the most terrifying thing.

WHAT HAPPENS IF I LET GO? 

It’s the biggest catch-22 we face. We must die to the illusion of control and our ego in order to live fully as ourselves. The fun happens when we fully release the reigns on our illusions and allow ourselves to open up to the possibilities.

We do get a little control though, so hang with me here - the control we have is to recognize we have no control. We have control to make the most out of what we have.

Just like good improv happens when the performers are completely willing to fail and completely willing to commit to the moment, we see the exact same thing happen in our lives. Magic happens when people open themselves up to the full spectrum of possibilities.

How many of us are negating and controlling in our lives instead of Yes, and-ing? What if peace is simply accepting the chaos, fully melting into the moment, and allowing for flow?

WHAT IF LIFE REALLY IS ONE GIANT IMPROV SHOW?

When the scene from Liberal Arts floated to me a few weeks back, I remembered my experience in front of an audience. The thrill and exhilaration of performing, presence, teamwork, listening, and surrender. It pushed me to go live on Instagram. I was reminded about how much there is to gain when we just say fuck it, I’ll DO IT LIVE!

Are you ready to jump in?

*this movie came out in 2012 and I’m not sure I recommend it, but since we’re in quar-times, fuck it, you should watch it, because what else are you doing? Ted Mosby from How I Met Your Mother (Josh Radnor) wrote it and it’s one of these movies where you’re like, why am I still watching? This movie is 10 years too long, but also encapsulates the pressure of college and how aimless adult life can feel like. Did you see his other movie happythankyoumoreplease? It’s the better of the two.

Shifting success to work for you: Navigating the world with an open heart center and swimming against the tide of a productivity at any cost culture.

In Human Design, wisdom doesn’t come from the defined energy, but from the white spaces in our charts.

Ra Uru Hu (channeler of the Human Design System) said it best when he said the white space is where we go to school.

Therefore, whenever I’m in my not-self over my worth, I go to open heart school where I am constantly reminded that open hearts have nothing to gain from trying to prove themselves.

So check your chart, if you have white space in the heart (ego) center (70% of us do), you have the potential to get really burned by societal pressures to perform and achieve.

TAKE THAT IN FOR A MINUTE. 70% OF PEOPLE DO NOT HAVE STABLE HEART ENERGY AT THEIR DISPOSAL. This means that the majority of people are getting sucked into competitive energy and ego energy that’s not theirs.

EXPLAINS A LOT, DOESN’T IT.

70% OF PEOPLE ARE OUT HERE THINKING, “I HAVE TO ACHIEVE TO PROVE MY WORTH.”

WE HAVE GOT TO GET OFF THIS HAMSTER WHEEL.

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UNLESS YOU ENJOY TAKING SOMEONE ELSE’S RIDE (SEE HAMSTER CLINGING TO WHEEL FOR DEAR LIFE ABOVE), learning to balance that open heart center is critical for our wellbeing.

We’re not meant to compete in the same way that defined hearts do. Those blessed with their own heart energy typically have the built in self-worth that we have to build on our own.

So how does the open heart center work?

Our heart centers amplify the output from surrounding defined heart energy. We’re processing centers for heart energy, which explains why we can really get caught in the tailwind of our cultural obsession with action and achievement. 

Hi, yes, I’d like off the hamster wheel please.

Balancing your open heart is possible!

First step is compassion towards ourselves and others. Second step is remembering with an open heart you aren’t here to prove your worth.

These are the only steps needed in heart school. Compassion towards yourself and the mantra, “I have nothing to prove.”

When you find yourself on the hamster wheel, feel free to give a quick reframe to the experience by saying thank you for teaching me that I have nothing to prove.

No one told us we’re out here amplifying the energy of others or that we can quickly get carried away while others can use that energy wisely. From my experience, it feels like failing at having value while others seem SO VALUABLE and it feels random. It can trigger my victim mentality and feel very, WHY NOT ME?*

No matter what we try, we can’t earn our way to heart energy if we don’t have it in our charts.

It is fully random that some people get heart energy and you and I didn’t. If you need something to blame, blame the stars. (Our bodygraph is a map of our energy and that energy outlined on the map is imprinted star energy. They just weren’t on heart energy when you were born and that is OK!)

It’s all going to be fine because we can shift our attention and awareness to where it can have an impact.

So my open heart friends - when we’re in heart school, we’re learning that we are already enough.

We may be in heart school for years, days, months, or on and off for our whole lives. We’re in heart school as much as we need until we integrate the knowledge that Open heart energy people aren’t here to base our worth on our productivity - it’s just not our energy!

So, open heart - you have nothing to prove. Now what?

Sitting down and defining success for ourselves, especially during testing times is a spiritual exercise that can bring greater alignment into your life.

If you didn’t have the media setting the agenda for you, what would success look like for you?

If you haven’t taken a step back from TV, magazines, social media anything that triggers you to act out of low self-worth, well- now’s the time. It’s super helpful to cut out the noise to connect back with your core essence.

If you need research proving that there’s nothing to gain from pushing yourself into endless productivity - I recommend finding these two books:

• How to do Nothing by Jenny Odell

• Do Nothing: How to Break Away from Overworking, Overdoing, and Underliving by Celeste Headlee

Yes, I read two books this summer to prove that I have nothing to prove, but if you’re anything like me and you need some solid validation and well-researched evidence about the benefits of shifting your success metrics - read one or both of these. Celeste Headlee’s research showing how our definition of success has been passed down and shaped through the generations genuinely blew my mind.

When we follow our own guidance and intuition and work on building our own self-worth foundation it can feel lonely, but know that we’re in the midst of creating new worlds. We’re making ourselves unshakeable. We’re swimming against the old ways and new ways of experiencing and experimenting can be met with skepticism by the greater collective.

Double-down on your own way!My life is infinitely more enjoyable when I am process-oriented. We’re on the vanguard when we decide to enjoy the moment and not just the end results.

While I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to stop getting caught in the achievement lifestyle completely, knowing that I have an open heart helps me become so much more aware when I am out of my alignment.

I am  here to feel and experience, I gain wisdom and awareness by growing my daily ability to appreciate life. 

If you’d like to explore this for yourself here are some reflection questions you can journal on:

How have your values shifted during this time?

How do you define success?

What lessons have you been learning lately? 

How do I know when I am in my not-self?

*if you click on this link know this is my favorite commercial from college in the year 2005. Yes, it is enforcing gender stereotypes + objectifies women, but I definitely felt,(maybe still feel) like an Ashley a lot.

Receiving a Human Design Reading

When choosing a reader, find someone who resonates with you. Having your Human Design chart read is a deeply personal experience and each reader will interpret your chart with their own lens.

When I read a Human Design Chart here’s my approach:

I see every person as an individual blend of energy - this personal energy creates the fuel for the talents and gifts that are meant to be divinely expressed through you.

When I read your chart, I read it as a whole picture - I see the messages the universe is here to express through you - the places where you have the potential for genius and the places where you are meant to impact the world. 

A reading can become a personally transformative experience as we allow our bodies to hear how magical we really are. 

We frequently downplay our personal magic or don’t realize what our magic is (because we innately think everyone can do what we can do and that’s simply not true!) 

Therefore, I  see our time together in a clarity session as a powerful tool for your growth and spiritual alignment. 

As you ascend into your full potential, one of the best gifts you can give yourself is the opportunity to see yourself through the eyes of a divine mirror.

I provide a reframe on who you are, so you can cut away the energetic drags and free yourself to co-create with the universe. 

You have the power already. My role is guiding you back to your authority and developing trust within yourself. You are the keeper of the keys 🔑 in unlocking your full power, you just need a map.

If you’re ready to work with me - book here!

Human Design 101: Why Should I learn my Human Design?

Knowing your Human Design can help you use your energy effectively and efficiently as you navigate through life and find out what it means to really be you.

The essence of Human Design is understanding how your aura works. The magic is you innately know how to live your design!

When we’re learning and investigating our Human Design we’re really asking these two questions:

1) How do I operate the best in the world?

2) What beliefs or blocks (conditioning) am I holding that are keeping me from living my way?

We can get a really good idea of what energy you have all the time and where you are meant to gain wisdom and knowledge in this lifetime by taking a deep dive into your Human Design chart.

There’s a lot of information out there on Human Design and about an infinite amount of ways that you can interpret it.

If you’ve found me, you’ll see I interpret Human Design as a tool we can use and apply to our lives in a grounded, practical way. You don’t need months of classes before you start experimenting with your own individual design.

If you’d like to learn more - I’ve posted foundational information here.

Working with a Human Design reader is a wonderful way to get the lay of the land and understand how your aura works.

If you’d like to explore getting a reading done with me - let’s chat! Drop me a note.

HUMAN DESIGN 101: WHAT IS THE NOT-SELF?

PERHAPS YOU’VE WORKED TOWARD A GOAL ONLY TO FIND IT WASN’T SO SATISFYING ONCE ACHIEVED?

Or just had that overwhelming feeling that you aren’t living YOUR life?

LIKELY YOU’RE WORKING OUT OF YOUR NOT-SELF.

THE NOT-SELF IS EXACTLY WHAT IS SOUNDS LIKE, IT’S WHAT HAPPENS WHEN WE LET OUR CONDITIONING TAKE OVER AND DRIVE OUR LIFE FORWARD INSTEAD OF ALLOWING OUR NATURAL AUTHORITY TO MAKE DECISIONS.

WE ALL HAVE A UNIQUE WAY OF MAKING DECISIONS AS OUR AUTHENTIC SELVES.

BY GETTING COMFORTABLE WITH OURSELVES, WE CAN BEGIN TO INTERACT WITH OUR LIFE AND OTHERS IN A NEW WAY. A FREEING WAY.

HUMAN DESIGN SHOWS US HOW TO GET IN OUR OWN CORRECT LANE. MOST OF US SPEND OUR LIFE OPERATING OUT OF THIS NOT-SELF SPACE WHERE WE ARE PUSHING TOO HARD AND USING OUR ENERGY INCORRECTLY. WE’RE ALL DRIVING AROUND IN FERRARIS, BUT HAVEN’T LEARNED HOW TO DRIVE. HUMAN DESIGN IS LIKE GETTING A DRIVING LESSON SO THAT WE CAN REALLY GET GOING.

Each energy type has its own theme that allows us to see when we’re out of our alignment - or driving in our NOT-SELF.

Generators + Manifesting Generators: when you are experiencing thematic frustration - it’s time to take a look at what you are spending your time on - has your energy stopped flowing and you’re trying to force it? Frustration is a sign you’re no longer using your energy efficiently.

Manifestors: When that anger bubbles up, you’re likely not speaking up or someone has tried to direct your action. When you’ve got that righteous anger flowing - PAY ATTENTION! You’re out of alignment.

Projectors: BITTERNESS, JEALOUSY, ENVY, COMPARISON - if any of these flavors are popping up - it’s time to regroup. With our deep ability to see into others, we often neglect ourselves. Bitterness (and it’s related cousins jealousy, etc) show up when we need to spend some time inside ourselves.

Reflectors: When you are just DISAPPOINTED, that’s the signpost from the universe that you need to take some time to release the energy you’ve collected along the way from society. You are in alignment when you’ve got that feeling of surprise and delight. If you’re overwhelmed with disappointment, time to spend some time alone recharging.

These energetic signposts are so helpful in telling us when it’s time to get out of our minds and into the body. If you’re finding that you’re living in your Not-Self more than alignment, that’s totally fine! No need to beat yourself up, just start getting curious. Journaling, yoga, movement, a conversation with a trusted friend can all be good places to begin to reconnect with your own authenticity.

Want to dig deeper? I’m always available for a Clarity Session.

Human Design 101: Introduction to Strategy and Authority

KNOWING + USING YOUR STRATEGY AND AUTHORITY IS ESSENTIAL TO YOUR HUMAN DESIGN FOUNDATION - These are the keys 🔑 to unlock your path!

Each energy type has its own strategy and your authority is based on your chart, determined by which energy centers you have defined*.

So, imagine your strategy as the way to filter your environment - it allows you to engage with life in an energy-efficient manner, and then your authority kicks in, alerting you to the correct opportunities.

As a Projector, my strategy is to wait for the invitation - I will get further along if I am patient enough to be invited into the next opportunity. Once the opportunity arises, I use my splenic authority to let me know IN THE NOW if this is correct - whereas an emotional Projector would wait for the invite and then sleep on it to know if the opportunity was correct - and a sacral Generator would respond after checking in with their gut feeling as their internal GPS. These are just a few examples!

YOUR STRATEGY TELLS YOU HOW TO USE YOUR ENERGY WISELY SO THAT YOU INTERACT WITH YOUR ENVIRONMENT WITH THE MOST IMPACT:

MANIFESTORS INITIATE WITH THE WORLD AND GET THE BALL ROLLING

GENERATORS AND MANIFESTING GENERATORS RESPOND TO THEIR ENVIRONMENT

PROJECTORS WAIT FOR THE INVITATION, WAITING TO BE INVITED INTO THE FOLD

REFLECTORS WAIT A LUNAR CYCLE BEFORE THEY MOVE FORWARD WITH THEIR DECISIONS

THE MAIN AUTHORITY TYPES:

EMOTIONAL AUTHORITY: CLARITY COMES OVER TIME - DO YOUR BEST TO NOT MAKE DECISIONS WHEN YOU ARE IN EMOTIONAL HIGHS OR LOWS

SACRAL AUTHORITY: LISTEN TO YOU GUT. YOU KNOW THAT SAYING IF IT’S NOT A HELL YES, IT’S A NO? THIS IS FOR YOU.

SPLENIC AUTHORITY: TRUTH IN THE NOW. THE SPLEEN SPEAKS QUIETLY AND IT TELLS YOU ONCE. IT’S A QUICK HIT OF INTUITION.

HEART (EGO) AUTHORITY: LISTEN TO YOUR HEART! THE SAYING IS YOUR HEART IN IT? THIS DIRECTLY APPLIES TO YOU.

G-CENTER OR SELF-PROJECTED AUTHORITY: AN INNATE INNER KNOWING. IT CAN BE HELPFUL TO TALK IT OUT, FIND A SOUNDING BOARD OR A SAFE SPACE WHERE YOU CAN HEAR YOUR SELF TALK - YOU’LL KNOW IT’S RIGHT WHEN YOUR HEAR YOURSELF SAY IT

(EXCEPTIONS: MENTAL PROJECTORS & REFLECTORS DO NOT HAVE AN INNER AUTHORITY.

MENTAL PROJECTORS HAVE A FIXED MINDSET WHICH IS THEIR GIFT, BUT JUST LIKE SELF-PROJECTED AUTHORITY THEY BENEFIT FROM SPEAKING THEIR THOUGHTS TO FIND THEIR OWN CLARITY

REFLECTORS MAKE DECISIONS USING OUTER AUTHORITY WHICH COMES FROM TRUTH OVERTIME & FOLLOWING THE LUNAR CYCLE)

*There is one exception to the rule - Reflectors all have the same strategy AND authority because they all have outer authority)

If you are learning about Human Design on your own (I love a good DIY) Know that energy type, strategy, and authority are the basics and the most crucial elements to get a hold of for yourself.

The magic of everything in Human Design is that it is actually really simple.

We typically have a hard time believing that, but most things are simple - we just love to complicate them.

My understanding of Human Design is akin to the movie Jiro Dreams of Sushi 🍣 - we spend years washing the rice 🍚 or learning to handle the knife right and once we really mind meld with our tools we can really begin to understand how everything works together.

It’s all an experiment. We are consciousness in a body. We are learning to live in the body - that is strategy + authority. If we can learn to be in harmony - what else do we need?!

As always - feel free to drop a line or add your thoughts here.

HUMAN DESIGN 101: INTRODUCTION TO ENERGY TYPE

When we start with Human Design, typically we start with our energy type. It’s the big thing people want to know when they ask you about your Human Design. They want to know how you are relating to the world around you.

When we talk about energy types, we are talking about the aura. In Human Design energy type and aura are interchangable. Typically, we’ve thought that all people have the same aura, but with Human Design - we see really that there are 5 different types of auras we can have.

Your energy type/aura doesn’t change throughout your life.

A QUICK PRIMER ON ENERGY TYPES:

MANIFESTORS - MANIFESTORS ARE THE TRAILBLAZERS IN THE WORLD. A RARE ENERGY TYPE, MANIFESTORS ARE HERE TO FOLLOW THEIR ENERGETIC URGES AND CREATE WAVES IN OUR WORLD. CONSIDER YOURSELF THE MATCH THAT STARTS THE BONFIRE.

GENERATORS - GENERATORS ARE POWERFUL BEINGS WHO ARE DRIVEN TO ENGAGE WITH THE WORLD THROUGH THEIR WORK. GENERATORS ARE DESIGNED TO DEEPLY LOVE WHAT THEY DO. IF YOU ARE A GENERATOR, YOUR CAREER AND WORK ARE YOUR LOVE LETTER TO THE WORLD.

MANIFESTING GENERATORS - AS A HYBRID OF MANIFESTORS AND GENERATORS - MAN-GENS ARE HERE TO CREATE NEW PATHS - USING THE TOOLS AT HAND, MAN-GENS TAKE A NON-LINEAR PATH TO THEIR OWN SUCCESS. MAN-GENS ARE DEFINED BY THEIR MULTIPLE PROJECTS AND MANY PASSIONS.

PROJECTORS - AS THE GUIDES AND SEERS, PROJECTORS SEE THE BIG PICTURE. WE ARE HERE TO BE RECOGNIZED AND RECOGNIZE THE OTHER. PROJECTORS ARE HERE TO SEE SYSTEMS AND LIVE OFF OF KNOWLEDGE.

REFLECTORS - REFLECTORS ARE THE SHAMANS AND THE MAGICAL BEINGS OF THIS WORLD. THEY ARE DEEPLY SENSITIVE BEINGS WHO ACT AS MIRRORS FOR SOCIETY.

Human Design 101: How to find your Human Design Chart

HOW TO GET STARTED WITH HUMAN DESIGN

Let’s start at the very beginning y’all! You’ll need to get your bodygraph chart to find out all the juicy information about your design.

Whether you are doing the DIY route or have been working with a Human Design reader, knowing how to find your Human Design chart is a really helpful tool to have!

Think of your chart as your map.

To create your own bodygraph, you’ll need 3 critical details:

• birth date

• birth location

• accurate birth time

All 3 elements are needed to create an accurate chart.

Just like when you are getting your astrological natal chart, our bodygraph is created using the location of the planets. We want the most accurate picture for the most accurate reading.

Where do I find this information?

For most of us, this information is on our birth certificate. However, if your certificate is missing your birth time, you might just have a short-form copy. If that’s the case for you and you live in the United States, request a long-form birth certificate from your state’s record office.

If you want to create your own chart visit https://www.mybodygraph.com and follow the instructions to create!

ACK! I don’t know my birth time!

If you are missing your birth time or are just guessing, know that your chart isn’t going to be perfectly accurate. However, the big things - like energy type (aura) are likely correct. If you’re in a pickle over creating an accurate chart, reach out! I’ve had success working with clients who don’t have an exact birth time available to them. I am happy to work with you directly and we will create your chart based on what we do know.

Ok, I’m making my chart - how do I make sense of what I am seeing?

If you’ve used the website I’ve recommended, along the sidebar (or if you’re using a mobile, press the information tab) you’ll find a list of the elements in your chart.

Take note of your energy type, your strategy, and your authority. These elements have the biggest impact. Learn more in my other 101 pages!

Have questions? Find me on the ‘gram and slip into those DMs!

Human Design 101: what is deconditioning?

Deconditioning is the process that begins when we choose to live out own unique Human Design - it’s the work that happens once we decide to find out what it means to deep dive into our own authenticity.

Until we wake up to our programming, we’re living out someone else’s ideas and expectations.

We live life on auto-pilot, not on purpose of course, but because we’ve been programmed by our families, our schools, our jobs, and by society at large. (in human design, this is called conditioning)

We don’t realize how often we’re operating on information that was fed to us by someone else. AND OF COURSE, WE DON’T EASILY SEE THIS, BECAUSE WE’RE ALL RUNNING ON SOMEONE ELSE’S PROGRAMMING.

WHO WANTS TO ADMIT THAT THEY ARE PLAYING OUT SOMEONE ELSE’S IDEAS?

IT’S NOT YOUR FAULT OR MY FAULT OR THEIR FAULT. IT’S JUST HOW IT GOES. AND THE GOOD NEWS, WE CAN DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!

IT’S A BIT SCARY TO TAKE A PEEK INTO OUR OWN OPERATING SYSTEMS, because gasp what will we find? Edvard munch’s the scream? (likely)

(UN)FORTUNATELY, THERE AREN’T REALLY ANY SHORTCUTS OR QUICK SOLUTIONS. IN FACT, IT’S SOMETHING WE’VE GOT TO DO EVERY DAY FOR-EV-ER.

THE ONLY WAY TO FIX IT IS TO DIVE IN AND SORT OUT THE GOOD, THE BAD, AND THE DOWNRIGHT UGLY.

(AND GIRL, WE’VE ALL GOT STUFF IN THERE THAT’S A BIT UGLY)

HAVE YOU EVER MADE A DECISION BASED ON A (SUBCONSCIOUS) BELIEF ONLY TO REALIZE THOSE BELIEFS WEREN’T YOURS IN THE FIRST PLACE?

THIS IS CONDITIONING.

CONDITIONING CAN TAKE HOLD OVER YOU IN MANY WAYS.

FOR EXAMPLE THINGS LIKE THIS:

• FEELING LIKE YOU’RE ACTING OUT A SCRIPT

• ACTING ON SHOULDS

• BOWING TO PRESSURE FROM OTHERS

What I love about Human Design is it’s ability to help us understand our energy. We can use our knowledge of our Human Design chart to help us spot and identify programming.

When we begin to take charge of our lives we can literally use our Human Design chart as a map.

The best place to start with identifying our personal conditioning is becoming familiar with our energy centers. Knowing which energy centers we have open allows us to see where we are more suseptible to conditioning from others and can helop shed light on why we carry shame over certain things.

Deconditioning isn’t something that’s a one day process.

DECONDITIONING IS AN ON-GOING LIFE PROJECT & WE’RE OUR OWN SUBJECTS IN OUR SELF-STUDY OF LIFE.

Can you reframe getting to know yourself as an investigation or project or a work in progress?

I like to think that we’re all little puzzles.

EACH DAY WE FIND ANOTHER PIECE. IT CAN BE A JOYOUS PROJECT OR WE CAN BE TOTALLY OVERWHELMED. CHOSE TO SEE YOURSELF AS A SUPER LONGFORM ART PROJECT & GET CURIOUS. WE’RE ALL WEIRD, WE’RE ALL FUCKED UP AND NO ONE KNOWS A FUCKING THING.

HERE’S THE COOL THING: WHEN WE START TO DECONDITION, WE ARE FREEING OUR SPIRITS FROM EXPECTATIONS OF OTHERS.

WHAT REALLY GETS US DOWN? MOST OF THE TIME, IT’S OUR PROJECTIONS OF WHAT OUTSIDERS THINK OF US.

WHAT IF WE' COULD FREE OURSELVES UP? EVEN FOR JUST A LITTLE BIT? WOULDN’T THAT BE PRETTY BOSS? I THINK SO.

THE THING IS, WE’VE GOT A LOT OF ANSWERS IN OUR HEARTS AND MINDS ALREADY, WE’RE JUST TYPICALLY SCARED OUT OF OUR OWN MINDS TO ACT ON THEM BECAUSE WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF WE DO?!

BUT THE MORE YOU CAN LISTEN TO YOUR OWN AUTHORITY THE MORE YOU WON’T GIVE AF ABOUT OTHER’S JUDGEMENT.

WHEN YOU CAN FIND YOUR AUTHENTIC STATE, IT MEANS YOU ARE FREE FROM SOCIETAL PRESSURES AND EXPECTATIONS, ALLOWING YOUR SPIRIT TO FIND ITS OWN INNER GUIDANCE.

LIVING YOUR DESIGN MEANS YOU ARE IN THE MOMENT. PRESENT. NOT FIXATED ON THE PAST. NOT RUNNING A SCRIPT FOR ALL THE WHAT IFS. JUST STRAIGHT UP LIVING.

We’re always inventing the future and the only limits we have are our own.

This work will support you in your self-exploration journey. Remember, we’re all scientists, and understanding our energy is the work we’re here to do.

We’re designed to transcend.

We’re designed to create.

We’re designed to love ourselves.

There is an infinite number of ways that we can express this - we just need to believe it’s possible FOR US.

We’ve all been given a unique purpose and we all have a distinct path.

By developing trust within ourselves, we can stop putting our power in someone else’s hands.

Our bodies are intelligent beings and if we can begin to listen to the wisdom they can offer us, we have the power to embrace a completely new life.

Our stories are being written anew every single day. Are you ready to begin living yours?

If you’re ready to work with me one-on-one book a reading or a free 15-minute discovery call here.